Foolishness

Everyone is different. It would be foolish to think that others would process, think, expect the same way I do. 

I'm sorry that I didn't even try to think from your perspective... I am so foolish in thinking that my way was right...

You are perfectly you and that's enough for Him and for me... really it is.

I know it must have been hard, now that I look back, for you. I feel like it could have looked like I was attacking you, or wanting you to become someone that you weren't. That you were not enough. That I was just yanking things out of you... that might not even be you, or just what I wanted. That you needed to provide me answers and clarity, even though I hadn't given you an opportunity to even process let alone make a decision. And in that moment... maybe in my selfishness I wanted it to go my way... but now, that i'm thinking clearer, I feel so foolish. You are one of the most important people in my life, and I accept you for who you are... and if i don't completely, then I want to. I want you to feel comfortable around me, and if it takes time for you to process, then I want to give you that time. You are perfectly you. Don't ever let me change that. 

I know I said honesty and communication is important, but what comes after honesty is normally conflict, and I just assumed we would handle it the way I handle it: at that moment, logically, decision making... so foolish. I tried to impose that onto you, and for that I am so sorry. I never want for you to feel like you are in the wrong, or your opinion doesn't matter, or your way is not right, or you need to come up with answers right away. You are so precious to me and I want to allow you to be you. 

Take all the time you need. I trust your words when you say you like me, and that I am worth it. At the end of every night I'm the one you're talking to and the last voice you hear before you sleep. That's enough.

I miss you and I hope to talk to you soon. 

-aio